The Endless Empathy Loop

The Endless Empathy Loop[1]

I hate making decisions but I love discovering and analyzing options, especially creative yet intuitive options.  What does that mean?

When I was very young I was very spoiled and one dimensional.  Making decisions was no problem; whatever I wanted at the moment seemed the right decision, one I quickly implemented without doubts.  I was decisive then.  But one day in a place far from where I’d started, I started realizing the consequences of my actions and feeling the feelings of others as though they were my own.  I became deeply empathic, thrilling in the strange sense of power it seemed to provide.  But that empathy robbed me of decisiveness, or perhaps it just saved me from the total egocentricity I’d started with.

Now, after way too many decades and a life too fully lived I somehow find time for self-analysis, time to try and finally meet myself or perhaps, more accurately, the myself I’ve become, but the resulting endless empathy loop feels way too confusing.

I hate making decisions but I love discovering and analyzing options, especially creative yet intuitive options.  What does that mean?


[1] © Guillermo Calvo Mahé; Manizales, 2010; all rights reserved

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