But Then, It’s been A Long Time
And the process starts, and it’s ended well, but for how long?
Will this time really be different? Perhaps the way it was with Vicki, where I can look back with longing and respect, much more than a trace of regret and say to myself: “now there was a wonderful human being. How did I let her get away”?
Each time has been different, Susan: pretty weird, no pain until much later and then, well, at least no pain now. Vicki, Cyndi and now, Julia: it must be me. Especially considering just how special Julia was.
The romantic quest for perpetuity, will it go on or have I learned something different. Is a bite at a time better? Does Charley Harper have the answer, or did he, until he started getting engaged? Will I ever tell anyone I love them again outside of my family?
I don’t think I want to and that is a profound change, but then, it’s been a long time.
 © Guillermo Calvo Mahé; Manizales, 2010; all rights reserved