Not morose, rather melancholy.

Nostalgic for illusions that never were,
yet still, strangely optimistic.
Learning from past mistakes and experiences,

from reflections, both shallow and profound,
from introspection and observation,
weaving illusory colored threads

into a tapestry of just who and what she should be,
understanding that the one I thought was her
never existed except in my mind

and in my fantasies. But that perhaps,
somewhere out there,
now that I know what she’ll be like,

perhaps I’ll find her, … or perhaps she’ll find me.
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© Guillermo Calvo Mahé; Manizales, 2019; all rights reserved. Please feel free to share with appropriate attribution.

Guillermo Calvo Mahé (a sometime poet) is a writer, political commentator and academic currently residing in the Republic of Colombia although he has primarily lived in the United States of America (of which he is a citizen). Until recently he chaired the political science, government and international relations programs at the Universidad Autónoma de Manizales. He has academic degrees in political science (the Citadel), law (St. John’s University), international legal studies (New York University) and translation and linguistic studies (the University of Florida’s Center for Latin American Studies). He can be contacted at guillermo.calvo.mahe@gmail.com and much of his writing is available through his blog at http://www.guillermocalvo.com.