What if sentience was first?
Self-awareness with utterly nothing about which to be aware?
Absolutely nothing existing, no being of any kind in any sense, just the sentience.
How not to be traumatized, but for the fact that trauma did not exist. Absolutely nothing did. Not even timid time. Certainly not space. Nor any heaven and, of course, no hells. Not even an incipient big bang, nor a little one, not even an infinitesimally tiny one. Not even solitude.
No right or wrong, no morality or ethics, no echoes or shadows or hints of things to come. No infinity or eternity. Nothing.
Nothing, but a newborn sentience with nothing to sense.
That’s what it would have been like to be god, in the real beginning.
No wonder divinity lacks stability and perspective.
© Guillermo Calvo Mahé; Manizales, 2022; all rights reserved. Please feel free to share with appropriate attribution.
Guillermo (“Bill”) Calvo Mahé (a sometime poet) is a writer, political commentator and academic currently residing in the Republic of Colombia (although he has primarily lived in the United States of America of which he is also a citizen). Until 2017 he chaired the political science, government and international relations programs at the Universidad Autónoma de Manizales. He has academic degrees in political science (the Citadel), law (St. John’s University), international legal studies (New York University) and translation and linguistic studies (the University of Florida’s Center for Latin American Studies). He can be contacted at email@example.com and much of his writing is available through his blog at https://guillermocalvo.com/.