Wondering[1]

I’ve been somewhat lonely lately but it’s been because of decisions I consciously made and which I believe to be right.  It’s given me perspective though.

I just spent a little time in my living room, a room I don’t frequent as much as I should, and I noticed how “me” it is.  Then in my den, I noticed the same thing.  They’re unique and they’re uniquely me.  And it led me to wonder about values, and again, about choices.

I really want to find someone special, I think I enjoy sharing and even more, I enjoy giving.  And I love being affectionate.  But I guess, perhaps, I like who I am too, and I’d rather not change that.

And I wonder whether I’ll ever be able to reconcile the two.